Who am I?
I've been exercising 4-5 times a week lately. I've also been annoyed if something got in the way of my exercise. I've lost a size (wow) and have definition in my calves and a bit in my thighs.
I can be elated... and thrown by this. This is not me, or at least not who I have been, practically my entire life. I do remember running 2 miles maybe 3 times a week in the mornings in high school. And being somewhat athletic in college, with all the marching (hard core) in Cal Band, plus some intermural soccer.
But overall? I have always been the slowest runner, nearly always the heaviest among my friends, the one most likely to be drawn to unhealthy foods when we went out.
And now, I think when I eat and I actually enjoy salads, simmered spinach, large amounts of veggies.
And when I think of it, it feels very weird. Very new. Very not me.
It's like a jacket that I like but rubs my shoulder whenever I wear it. Odd but maybe, in the end, OK.